How Far I Have Gone?

            The bud that sprouted a long time ago is now starting to bloom. The person from the past can never be the person of the future. That is because, change is there to manipulate every person’s life. Change that is meant to happen according to whatever you do. The thing is that, what will you do to manipulate that change?

            The first time I stepped in that gate and roamed that campus, I know within myself that this is the time where change is inevitable. But that change turned my life into something I wouldn’t expect. Something far beyond my knowledge. I never predicted that this school would change me.

            I kept telling myself, escape from these chains. Do what you want to do. But I never did. How can I when I know my heart is within this school? How can I when this school had been a big part of me?

            I’ve never noticed it before but little by little, this school is shaping me. This school is making me, me. I know nothing about this until I, myself, noticed how I suddenly changed in every aspect. My interest, my abilities, my personal view of myself, they all changed.

            I can’t escape. I want to escape. But then, as I figured myself, I can’t. Every time I think of it myself, I wonder. Is the me today, the real me or just someone I don’t know of? Should I still search for the real me or is it the me I see on the mirror? But then, I answer myself, whether or not the me of today is the real me or not, it doesn’t matter. For as long as I know what I wanted to do and everyone around me is rooting for it, too, I can bravely say that I am happy.

          I am almost complete and I can’t wait for the day that I can proudly say that I have no regrets. That I’ve done my best because, as of today, I still don’t know what ‘my best’ is.

          But still, I thank this institution for making my life more complicated. Because with this, I can finally understand the complex of life and I can finally know, even as a beginner, how to handle problems on my own. 

       Cavite National Science High School will forever be part of my life and can never be erased.